Sunrise

I am watching the most exquisite sunrise that I will ever witness. It is perfect, wild, vast.

It is so beautiful, it moves me to tears.

I want to turn, to catch your eye and your hand and share this incredible moment, but there is no one there.

I never imagined doing this alone.

Raising children is hard; everyone knows that. I always grow the extra arms when I need them, but life would be easier with someone else’s arms around us too.

It’s the small things too. I miss a cup of tea made for me when I am furniture to a sleeping babe, or just too drained to put the kettle on myself. I miss the nurturing gestures.

I don’t want to do this alone.

Even more than sharing the load in the tough times, I painfully miss sharing the beautiful, intimate moments with these kids. They are so funny, sweet, clever, remarkable.

They are perfect, wild, vast. They are so beautiful, they move me to tears.

I am watching the most exquisite sonrise that I will ever witness.